Since my junior year in high school, a specific fear comes back to haunt me every autumn. My fear continues to nag at me. I try to push it down, but it feels like I’m fighting against the changing of the seasons. As I’ve grown, this fear no longer feels as threatening but I still have to surrender it before the Lord.
Ironically, the upcoming season’s name entails the essence of my fear. Fall.
I have a fear that all my hair is going to fall out or thin drastically. Every year when the trees begin to lose their leaves, my head takes a cue and begins shedding.
As a high schooler, this fear led me to make many fear-driven decisions. Obsessively avoiding the use of heat on my hair. Taking vitamins that always made me feel sick. I constantly inspected my scalp for signs of thinning.
After talking to my doctor and doing some research, I discovered that it is normal to have a season where your hair sheds a bit more. It’s called telogen effluvium if you want to look it up
Also, I read that on average a person loses 100 hairs a day which may be more during a shedding season. 100 can sound like a lot, but on average a person has about 100,000 strands of hair on their head. These facts can be reassuring when our fears feel irrational.
Do you have a fear that feels irrational? Or a fear is seasonal? Or a fear you have to keep to surrendering?
Maybe, like mine, it seems irrational and even small and when you compare it to fears others may be facing. Maybe it seems too trivial to even mention.
We like to say there is nothing too big that God can’t handle. Have we thought there is nothing too small for Him either? When He tells us “my yoke is easy” in Matthew 11:30, He is including those small anxieties you hold deep down inside because “they don’t matter.”
If left alone those “trivial” fears can start as a weed of fear and turn into a field of overgrown anxiety. Little lies can prohibit perfect peace if we don’t weed them out continually.
Where do your fears fester? In your mind? Do they come out in your decisions? Maybe it comes out as worry like the disciples continually expressed throughout the gospels?
When we are reminded that God cares about our small everyday worries, fears, and anxieties, we are reassured that we can come before Him and surrender our same fears again.
“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. And even the very hairs of your head are numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” (Matthew 10:29-31 NIV)
Here Jesus is reassuring his disciples as they are about to go out in service of him. Jesus is encouraging them by saying that God knows every detail of our lives so we don’t have to fear, and we can move forward in our service of Him.
The enemy wants to trip us up in fear, so we don’t share God’s love. This is why Jesus was always reminding his disciples “Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.” (Matthew 10:31 ESV)
We can constantly bring all our ever-so-consistent fears before our ever-so-reliable God. Yes, this includes our small worries, fears, and anxieties. How do we bring things before God? We pray, journal, and worship our way through them.
Anything we fear can be brought before Him daily. As I do this, I am comforted knowing He is in control even of the hairs on my head.
After we’ve brought it before God, we can begin to share our struggles with others. Sharing our struggles allows us to bear each other’s burdens and reminds us that we aren’t alone especially as you can ask others for prayer and you can pray for them.
Sometimes I am hesitant to share what I am going through. We don’t have to share every detail, but every time I open up, I am strengthened with encouragement and reassurance that someone is praying for me.
As we cast our worry, fear, and anxiety on Him, no matter how small, we know He is in control and He already knows the outcome of what we fear.
This year I’m striving to be proactive in my fear by bringing it before God ahead of time.
How can you prepare for the fears of an upcoming new season? Are you starting a new job? Entering a new life stage? Starting a new semester of school? What can you pre-pray for?
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